The Pollucite stone beings inspired this sharing. They came individually and in circles joined by blood red rubies and soft green peridot to sing a song of shattering patterns. What a beautiful time of year for this song to be heard as it is the beginning of a new year. Not just any year … 2012 is considered by many to be a very important year.
Pollucite’s song was mirrored in a personal inner journey that I am guided to share with you here. I don’t usually offer so much of my personal story, but I am trusting that there is purpose in this offering.
I journeyed inwards to a “sacred space” that I created in my inner world. It was quiet and felt empty. It felt deserted. Usually there is at least one of my guides waiting there for me; or their presence is felt somehow. Even when I am there by myself, I feel a warmth and comfort in being in this place. This time was different. I felt alone. Really alone. It was uncomfortable. I was overcome by sadness. Then from out of the emptiness, my guides began to turn up. One after another. I was overjoyed to see them. This was quite an awakening for me, because that momentary quiet held a deep message. That I was not alone. I was never alone and those times when I felt the most alone, are actually the moments where I receive the most support. That support might not come in human form – but it is there and it is powerful. What a gift that was and if I’d left my inner world right then and not ventured further, it would have been enough. However, even though I might have been happy to end there, there was to be more to this journey. That was just the beginning.
I received an image … It was an image of a blue glass vase shattering. I saw all sorts of shattered glass all over the floor of a room (representing my throat chakra). It was sort of like getting a psychic flash – you know a glimpse of what was to come before it happened. A premonition within a meditation of an upcoming event within that meditation. I didn’t know why I was given that image and I still don’t.
Next, a small glass house appeared floating in mid air. It was quite beautiful – it was Victorian in it’s structure – but it was completely transparent and very open inside. Victorian architecture is actually quite deep and rich and contains many separate and closed off areas – so this open glass house was quite the contrast to that. I shrunk down in size so that I could go into the house and Hummingbird came to give me a ride in. There was no doorway. She took me to the underside of the house, which was completely open. There was a ladder extending up into the house for me to climb up and gain entrance.
After I climbed in, the first thing that showed up was a woman – very prim and proper and like a school teacher. Now that I think of it – she was very Victorian – which goes to show that everything – each detail – holds many connections. She said to me …
“What were you thinking!”
She repeated it over and over …
“What were you thinking!”
It was a reprimand about something I’d said. This sparked what I believe was a buried memory. I think that somewhere in my life, or one of my lives, I made a pact with myself in a moment similar to the one that was being replayed for me, to THINK before I speak. To analyze and censor and edit EVERYTHING that came into my thoughts before I let them rise out through MY THROAT. It seems that right then, at that moment, I cut my throat off from my heart … I’d isolated it. NO WONDER I FELT ALONE!!!!
I continued on. I saw another figure … He was an englishman I believe and he had a giant smile. Kind of reminded me of the cheshire cat. I don’t know much about the Cheshire cat and it wasn’t until I was writing all this down that I remembered that he is a character from Alice in Wonderland. That’s the second Alice connection … as before I went into the glass house – “MY WONDERLAND”, I needed to shrink down in size. I’ve come to see that Spirit reveals what needs to be revealed and and all I need to do is trust what comes through.
There was no stairway inside the house. The ladder that I climbed to get into the house extended right up through the house. I climbed this ladder to the 5th floor. I’d already seen the room so it wasn’t a surprise to me. I’d already seen the shattered glass. The glass fragments sparked a recollection of the Pollucite Crystal and the stone circles that sang a song of “shattering patterns”. So when I saw the shattered glass, I felt that message reflected in the broken pieces.
I received a message through my exploration of this glass house …
to open up the throat, the rest of the house
must be “open” … CLEAR … transparent.
That is the only way that I would be able to speak clearly and purely from my heart. That’s not to say that I have to tell everyone everything all the time. It means that I do not close off the things that I want to say for fear of saying the wrong thing. And when there is an open connection between the heart and the throat, what I say will be much clearer and will be more likely to be perceived in the way that I intended.
I see now that the feeling of being completely alone at the start of this journey was showing me something even deeper than I first realized. Something connected to the shattering glass and the broken patterns. I don’t know if I can do justice to the description but I will try. This isolated feeling was quite intense. It was a sense of … well … as if there was NOTHING there. I mean NOTHING. No other being. Not there or anywhere. It was a feeling of NOTHINGness. So when my friends began to emerge … it was like a … SHATTERING. A shattering of the silence. A shattering of the emptiness. A shattering of the illusion that I was alone. A broken pattern.
This experience came a couple of weeks ago. I’d been holding onto it, as I had the sense that it was not quite time to release it. Then the other day I was alone – more alone than I been in a very long time. I got a beautiful message about how the word “alone” breaks down into AL – ONE …. all is one!!!! I’ve never seen that before. I didn’t see it until I was truly ALONE. I also see why I was to wait until I got this message before I posted this journey! It was the PERIOD at the end of the sentence – the completion of the threads that stranded together to create this whole experience and the light that shone through to reveal the hidden folds.
I invite you all to share your own inner journeys with the the stone beings, if you feel guided to do so. I invite you to open up your heart and allow what you feel to flow out through your words. If you want a safe place to do so, I created a closed space on google groups. If you would like to come on by and share or just listen in and feel the support, send me your email address and I will send you an invitation to join the group. You can contact me through the song of stones website.
I want you all to know that, even though I don’t hear from all of you directly, I do feel your magnificent presence there in support of Song of Stones and I am ever grateful for that. I feel it all the more so after having this experience that was sparked by the Pollucite crystals and the circles they formed.